My 2 cents about this youtube thing.

HEY DOLLS - 

As you might know I've shifted more on youtube and set my "blogging" aside. 

Of course, I still post on my blog - mainly videos - 

but there's a reason why I had to do this. 

I lost my passion for blogging. 

I lost it, and I lost it ages ago. 

I found it boring, 

and I was finding it to be tedious to blog. 

I still wanted to blog. 

I wanted to blog for a long time. 

And I have been blogging a long time. 

But it didn't feel like it was for me. 

It was a stepping stone. 

This is my 4th year in the blogging world.

And while it might seem like not that long, 

in the blogging world - that's a LONG LONG time. 

I am not the type of person who went into this thing for the popularity, 

for the events or the opportunities. NO

I LOVE makeup, and I want to share that passion with the world. 

I looked up - and still do - at beauty gurus 

and find the whole thing so alluring. 

But youtube is a cruel place to be. 

Blogging is "safe". 

You're hiding behind a screen and no one has any idea who you are,

 how you truly are in real life. 

Youtube is different. 

And if you've never been in front of a camera, you wouldn't understand. 

A lot of you are thinking - 

Oh I hate it when someone films me, I find it awkward.

I'm not talking about that. 

I'm talking about switching on the camera and just being you. 

When I film videos for youtube, I feel like I'm at home - 

it's something I've always dreamt of doing. 

And I'm doing it now - full time. 

It's difficult to call it full time because aside from the fact that it's my hobby, 

I DON'T earn a full-time-job pay from it. 

So let's call it a full time hobby. 

This full time hobby of mine, consumes a lot of my time, 

and I don't mind that one bit. 

I've stopped working and I'm the stay at home mum, 

something I never quite wanted to be - 

hold on - hold on I'm not done yet. 

This was my decision, and whilst two sentences ago 

it might have seemed like I'm not happy, that's so not the case. 

You see - I have a super supportive boyfriend, 

he motivates me and encourages me to do this youtube thing. 

So by being that stay-at-home mum, I can do this youtube thing.

If I didn't have his support I don't think I would have continued to do this, 

just because a lot of people like to pin-point at this youtube thing as a "lame" thing. 

I've had so many people "trying" to make fun of me for doing youtube. 

I was actually one of the firsts in Malta who started doing beauty videos. 

One of the very firsts, if not the first one. 

I deleted the very first few videos, 

because of the trash-talk from people. 

But being the first - or one of the first, is not always a good thing. 

Back when I started blogging it was still a lame thing to do - 

now everyone's popping blogs just because 

they have the support of the ones that have been blogging for a long time.

It's no longer something lame, it's no longer a tough place to be.
To put things into perspective -
Back when we started bloggers meet ups -
it was mainly because we wanted to find the support in each other, 
because we all found it rather tough to deal with the people who found this lame.

I've come at a point where a don't give a flying muffin 

about what people think. 

I get invited to sooo many events, 

and I'm not bothered to go to all of them. 

THIS IS NOT A STATUS THING FOR ME. PERIOD. 

I love getting feedback on this youtube thing, 

I love getting comments, and likes - 

and I used to disable ratings because dislikes used to get to me, 

and honestly - now I don't care if I get them.

I care about the likes.

I care about the comments, 

the readers, 

and everyone who supports me. 

And if anyone thinks of me as this lame-girl-doing-youtube-makeup-videos, 

so be it. 

I am doing what I love and I'm eternally grateful to anyone who supports me doing it. 

Over & Out!

XX

DYNA